I said this on Sunday in a Facebook post "I'm struggling I want healing. I want a miracle. Whether it's through God Healing me. Finding that one medication that works or even uhm - surgery. I just want it. It's a battle. Even though it's not over- I know I have a God of Comfort and a God of Compassion and I just continue to trust in Him and put my faith in Him - ill be ok. I get frustrated. I get angry. It gets hard- somedays I don't know how I do it or how ill make it- but He always pulls me through. He never let's us walk alone. Ever. No matter where your at. No matter what your facing.
Today- my Epileptologist told me- again, the chances of drugs controlling the simple seizures/ aura seizures are slim to none. We're going to try another med but also try another bout of test. I know God is Able. I'm so tired today. I honestly actually am quite exhausted and Crabby. I'm so thankful for Gods Grace and the people who put up with me. Most days I can hide it- but poor Hannah. Sigh. I've apologized so much to her. I was also told I have generalized weakness in my right side- again. Mainly my arm and slight in my leg-- comes and goes after so many seizures in a day. Dumb. I'm right handed. Makes things a little hard some days. I had blood work done. Waiting on my levels to come back.
As I said in yesterday's Post- the specialist appointments are the worse. But -- I know God is able. I'm reminded of something I heard a while back. " you have to go through the valleys because there's things you have to learn there that you won't learn on the mountain top".
It's very true. This has taught me more than what many will ever understand and still is.
What your going through doesnt define you. It doesn't make you. Doesn't break you. Should it change you? Yes! But God Promises to walk us through it all.
We never walk alone.
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